Wow - everything is hitting me at once!  Any day now I am going to be a Memé...at 37 years old!  And in 19 days my oldest son is leaving for boot camp.  While I am proud of him, I am so frightened.  He will do close to 4 months at boot then because he didn't finish high school he will go to military high school and get a diploma after 9 months and from there go straight to tech school.  He will be gone close to 2 years total.  His brothers are going to miss him and it upsets me that we don't even know if he'll get to see Charlie born.  Today is so overwhelming for me, I'm barely keeping it together.