Physically and emotionally drained. Ready to give up - totally. The last time I was without a car I was without one for 3 months but it was summer and it didn't seem to be as bad as it is now. Of course that was before the divorce was final and I was able to be on state assistance. Per the divorce agreement I have to be self-sufficient or they are going to give my ex custody of my two youngest boys. I am getting more discouraged by the day. NOTHING is coming thru. Hopefully I will at least get good news from Home Depot on Friday - I am keeping my fingers crossed and praying like crazy. I am also praying that my friends at FCC will bless me. I know there are people that have been there longer & have sadder stories than mine, and I don't think I am any more deserving than anyone else but I can't lose these boys. They are my LIFE. They are all I have. The older kids are out and Mandy is about to start her own family and without a car and job, not only am I not going to be able to take care of the boys, but I won't be of any use as a Memé either.
I WANT TO WORK - I LOVE WORKING - I WANT TO BE ABLE TO JUST SUPPORT MYSELF!
I am praying so hard for a miracle and it just seems as tho no matter what I do, none will come.
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